Aug 29 2009
A lot of things happened in the last few weeks, something good and something bad.
First of all, three of my friends planed to visit me from Taiwan, two already went back; the other one is on the flight and will arrive here tomorrow. These three girls planed to come at different time, one after one to fill up my schedule of August. I think the August of mine should be called “Hang-out Month”. I did nothing but hang out instead of going to center, volunteer and swimming pool. Besides, I didn’t know a human being could get tired of hanging out before- -now I do, very much so.
My first visitor is Ladybird, she is the one matters a lot to me. I admitted that it was an emotional moment when I saw her at the airport. I didn’t even know myself if I want to see her at the time, because I knew she was still loving me, and the more good times we had here the worse we would suffer afterward. We are meant to be apart, now she is studying in Tokyo and staying with her mother who married to a Japanese man; in the meanwhile I am struggling to make a living in New York. I still believe it was a right decision for us to end this 8-year relationship because we each other have to move on in our own lives. Now I am very happy to see her doing what she always wanted to do in her life, quit the job and spend time with her long-separated mother. I just haven’t been able to forget her and so many wonderful memories she left to me. Somehow my world stopped after she left, and seems this fascinating New York, which it used to be for me, lost its color and sound.
The second visitor is May, she used to be my personal English tutor. I sent Ladybird away and picked up May at JFK at the same time, but they just missed the chance to see each other. At the time May was here, I was aware of my overspending and designed to take it serious for job-hunting. The weather was humid and hot outside, I walked around the city whole day and forgot to drink a drop of water. Then I got heatstroke and was knocked down on my bed for two days. It was the first time I was sick since I came to US, fortunately, May was here and did a great job to take care of me. What a lucky guy I am! Indeed, the sickness scared me and made me homesick. Without May, I would have suffered for double at least. I owe her one!
Last Saturday, I had an interview in an American own online business company. The person they were looking for is a mandarin speaker, bike rider, tour guide and experienced on online business. Seems I happened to fit all the requirements, and I am so the type for the company. The interview went perfectly until they asked me for my social security number, then every seen-to-be-perfect thing was totally blown up. Though I could expect the certain result of interview before I went there, the feeling of disappointment punched on me immediately afterward. Nevertheless, I did learn something from this reckless try, an experience of real contact with American company was a best feedback to me. Anyway, the real world is not a fairytale even though in New York, if I could get a nice job in such a short time here, that is not fair for the rest of people who strive for a living. I will keep going for my goal!
Some said we will enjoy all the possibilities, if we never give up going after our dreams. But isn’t it too beautiful to believe we are special, when the hard-life could easily impose a sorrow on us. I’m just mumbling, also wondering!
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